I’m an angel

I was talking to a friend the other day whose known me about 11 years (with some missed time in between) and he stated that I was an angel. I’m not certain why exactly but being called an angel or “holier than thou” my whole life has always made me upset. I never wanted to be seen as better than anyone because I never thought myself as higher than another. But I mean who wouldn’t want to be called an angel, right? Dictonary defines it as:

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a spiritual being believed to act as an attendant, agent, or messenger of God, conventionally represented in human form with wings and a long robe.

That sounds like exactly who I am! lol No, I’m just playing. However, it took a minute to ask him why he thought I was holier than thou. He answered by saying, “You’ve been this way since I’ve know you.” “You chose to walk a straight path throughout your life that I and most other people did not.” That annoyed me again! How can this person whom I haven’t known my whole life tell me about the “straight path” I’ve been on. I’m different. He doesn’t know me. I try new things now. Listen, I was mad for no reason. lol I remembered that I promised myself once I turned 30 that I’d stop allowing the little things to make me so annoyed. I’m still learning but I’ve found it comes easier once you allow someone to explain themselves first, instead of ‘jumping to conclusions.”

It’s not that I want to be seen as some bad person but I’ve always wanted people to know we have more similarities than differences. We’re alike even when I don’t choose the same activities. Yet I’ve accepted that I can be seen as different or “set apart” in a way. I don’t participate in other activities that most people do, although I have grown to learn that it’s okay to try new things. I’ve never been one to fall into peer pressure because I’ve been independent in my thinking. And that’s okay. It’s okay to be different than everyone that you choose to hang out with. It’s okay to live differently than most. It only becomes not okay when you aren’t happy with yourself and how you’re choosing to live. I may not be webster’s dictionary’s defintion of what an angel is but I’ll take Urban dictionary’s definition….

Angel is a loving and caring person. She/he will make your day brighter just being there. She/he has some sense of style. They can show you undying love and compassion. With that being said Angel has their flaws. They go through a lot and it’s sometimes hard to break their walls. They can do great things. If you got yourself an Angel you’re lucky. Don’t lose them cause it hurts a lot.

Keep being you no matter what people call you because I’ve been called many and I only answer to one. And that’s Kineatra. Have a great week! Thanks for reading!